Ups and Downs!
Ups and downs!
I was in the middle of a promenade tonight, weary and tired, trying to look at the sky and wishing to see a shooting star! Wanted to make a wish, desperately!
Ok, alright, my day was not ideal and I was hoping for a tweak or two for tomorrow’s sunrise. I waited and walked. About two hours had passed, after which I realized, now those were two hours I am never going to get back.
I was at the patio of my building and Mumbai’s greenhouse gasses had wrapped up most of the colors of the sky and I could hardly see any twinkle above either.
So it was two hours of vacant murky space that I was staring at moving around in concentric circles. I got really tired of something, perturbed and a wee bit irritated at “yours truly” for further wasting time and hoping to make the night better which evidently did not happen. I decided to go back downstairs and go home. Then I said to myself, I am an artist, a writer, an inventive individual, ahem! Frustrations and depressions are part of the routine; I should not give up so easily.
I came back and kept walking and by then my Mp4 player had given up its verve. I guess I had burned out more than an hour of its battery already today while travelling while nothing was getting done.
As I stood unmoving I heard a ruffle in between the trees and it was growing loud.
As I stood staring at that place where there was not a soul and was so quite that I could take notice of my own breathing, the ruffling sound grew odd and suddenly through those moving leaves there was stillness again in the air as I heard my heart beat. I saw something.
My beat and rhythm of the heart matched the flapping wings of the beautiful dove that just flew right above me. It looked gorgeous. It looked serene. It felt and filled my heart with bliss.
It would sound such a cliché if I said that as I kept looking at that bird, it disappeared all of a sudden. But I guess I have been fed with too much of scientific proof and theories over the past two decades of my life, so I would quote it as, “ As I watched the bird that slowly disappeared into the darkness of the space….” But I really and with all honesty felt that it had suddenly disappeared.
Remember, I am also an artist. So I have to speak my mind.
It was such a beautiful sight and I was taking in and savoring the blissful scene when all of a sudden I bent down with a jiff as a huge bat flew so low, it could stomp on my head and make my day dark, again. So much for the bird of bliss eh!
But I guess that is what life is all about. The white and the black. The good and the bad. The right and the wrong. The ups and the downs. Hmmmm…… I got it then. So without wasting too much time I finished the work that I had and then keyed in these lines and will now go back to reading something before I am off to bed.
Just hoping, that tomorrow when the dove flies again, it would not be followed by the winged messenger of the scary space.
Now we all know, that’s not possible……
It’s all, Black and white….
Every dawn has its night,
The sun shy’s down with its moonlight
Every moment screams of pain
Every day it sure can’t rain…..
As I sit here and quote the dreams,
I pray to self for I should clearly see
With a shiny shoe as I would run off to work
Do something that would polish my dream….
Now I really don’t mind the darkened days
The wreckful memories of early days
I want to breathe and beat the pacing heart
For I would see my goal clearly again today……
Ananthanarayanan V
techdivine@gmail.com
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